strange things afoot...

Overal an interesting day, to say the least. I walked into work today promptly at 11:00 to discover the store was already open and a group of sort of grungy guys hanging out in the lounge area and Annie talking to the new girls that were hired about not paying attention to the cameras. I asked Annie what was going on, and she blankly looked at me and said "We're filming today, you know... the pilot?"
Nope, I did not know, although I was suddenly really glad I put on makeup and a relatively cute outfift. The crew was there for the whole day and pretty cool, but it was hard finding the zone where I wasn't totally aware of the camera in my face. They asked for dirt on Annie and Garret, I really had none, but I hoped I did a good job. They just need about 15 minutes of interesting to put together a tape and I think they got that, I know I was really self concious and awkward the whole time. There were a whole lot of weird little vingettes that they spawned for TV, like Annie and Garrett fake bickering about handbags, break dancers having a dance-off and me and the other girls being catty about this and that. Although Annie and Garrett bicker nearly daily the other things were totally out of the ordinary, but will probably make for interesting TV since reality TV is probably 15% real.
IF the show works out it would be a HUGE boost for the store, and I think that is really the only reason Annie and Garrett are really pursuing it. My fingers are crossed, if only because I am a reality TV whore and the novelty hasn't worn off yet.

Things with my fellow are going super well and I am happy. I know its still a new thing, but I am still really excited about it.

My mom and little sister are leaving tomorrow for Ecuador for a few weeks. It is really freaking me out. I just hope they are safe and they make the most of their trip, especially my little sister. I think she needs some sort of benchmark moment and I think doing missions work in a thrid world country might just be it. I'm not going to be able to have any contact with them while they are gone and I know I'll be worried sick until they touch down back in Pittsburgh.

find your bliss...

Today in one of my classes, my professor expressed the importance of finding out what makes you happy, grabbing onto it and following it with all your heart. Knowing what is important to you and what you enjoy doing and following that bliss and success will come to you. It is a concept I had heard before, but for some reason today it resonated with me on a deeper level than I had let it before. Maybe because for some reason, now it seems like finding my bliss is a much more tangible option. I'm close to finishing up school, I have a job I like, I'm surrounded by a wonderful community of friends and I have a loving and supportive family.

At the same time though, I can't seem to get past all the little stumbling blocks that keep me firmly entrenched in adolescence. The fact that I have a mental list of "People Who's Existence Annoy Me to a Level that I require Ranting About Them and We Don't Even Live in the Same City And I Probably Really Don't Know Them Except for the Internet" is assuredly a sign of this. I waffle back and fourth on these stupid little things a lot. On one hand I know I am egotistical enough to think that what I think about these people really matters and on the other hand I fully realize the immaturity of it all right down the vaguely clever remarks I quip about people on the list. I think I just *heart* petty, stupid drama for the same reasons people watch soap operas, the entertainment value. Except what makes this different is that these are real people, with real feelings and not scripted characters. I need to remember that.

As to the rest of my life, it's been some ups and some downs with players past and present. Funny how people show up again when you are least ready for it and funny how some disappear when you really wish they wouldn't.

feel the love, the drunken love

Few things make you feel better than this:

(05:44:38) kate: clare - i lvoe you j
(05:44:43) clare: i love you too!
(05:44:53) kate: you're eth aweeeeeeeeeesome
(05:45:09) clare: no, you're teh awesome!
(05:46:47) kate: nno you are
(05:47:20) kate: i are teh mizzing i
(05:47:20) clare: no! you!
(05:47:21) kate: u
(05:47:24) kate: nu-uh!
(05:49:16) kate: ive got the dunrjk hiccips

I are teh mizzing you too, HLM