bessa...

The more I sit around and not do anything the more I am acutely aware it does not serve me well. My brain is entirely too overactive. I've been rolling around a number of things in my brain none of which are benefiting from the extensive over thinking I am subjecting them to. The more I think about and redefine what will make me happy the more noticeable the holes are in the blueprint that defines my happiness. I feel like I am caught up in this tumultuous place in between holes where I start thinking "well, if hole A was filled then maybe hole B wouldn't be a problem." I know that I can not get caught up in insecurity, I have to shift my mindset to "With work hole A will take care of itself and so will hole B." There are choices I have to make that are going to be difficult but in the end I think they will be what is best for me and keeping that mantra in mind will be important in the coming weeks.

I never want to be happy with settling. I never want to be stagnant. I want to be ever evolving.