doldrums...

I've been really stressed out recently, and not really in a place where I feel like I can effectively communicate well with anyone. This is evidenced by the phone conversation with my mother where I told her that I hate it at AU, I want to drop out and I want to start over somewhere new. Which is true, and I needed to tell her that, but the conversation (if it can even be called that) did not go well and a lot of nastiness was thrown from both sides. I know my mother and I know that she wants the best for me; however, it is a struggle to balance her views with the reality of my situation.

I also got into a fight with my little sister today over this situation she's been dealing with since Friday. She recently signed a citation and agreed to pay a fine for an act she didn't commit and was talked into and happy to sign. I don't understand how she feels and I guess it isn't my place to feel any certain way about it but I don't think she should take all of this crap lying down. The person on the other end of all of this shit is a total bitch who I'd like to punch in the face if given the opportunity.

Work also sucks, but thats another entry for another day. Even writing here is a trial, I just feel so ugh. ugh. ugh. ugh. I don't know. ugh.